yes, well...homework sucks. and so does looking for colleges.
not that anyone really cares. I just feel like complaining.
I realize that if anyone tried to read my last entry they couldn't because of the plethora of spelling mistakes. my spelling's usually bad, but not -that- bad. My excuse is that the keyboard at school is different, so it's harder for me to type, thus making it harder to spell. I could go back and fix it, but...I don't wanna. so there.
i've lately been going down the list of mangas on OneMAnga and testing/reading them all. If i don't like it by the end of the first chapter or if I know beforehand that i don't like it (like bobobo and one peice) i skip it. otherwise i try to read the whole thing. there are actually a ton i had never heard of before that are really awesome! the thing is...it takes a really long time. i've been reading them for months now and i'm only in the Fs. oh, well. at least i won't get bored soon.

I've decided to be a director after all my schoolings done, but I'm not really sure about how that's going to work. I'm okay with the learning part- learn how to make and write a film, study film, watch movies, observe people, have fun making movies on your own...but then, what's next? once i have all the knowlege, how am i supposed to apply it? how do I start? I know I shouldn't worry so early in the game, and that i may just change my mind later on, but i guess i'm just feeling alot of insecurity. my dream is to make a really cool fantacy mirrormask/pan's laberynth-y type of movie that also has alot of modern symbolism and/or explores certain ethical debates, but...first I have to become a director. I suppose the best thing to do is just read. read artlicles and books on famous directors and just continue to learn and never pass up a chance to get connections. If i do all that, everything -should- fall in place...I guess.
or maybe i'm just doomed.
and maybe i shouldn't be worrying about this yet.

i'm actually excited, because my birthday's coming up next month (in march). I won't say when or how old i'll be, because i don't know everyone on this site (that'd be impossible!), but i'm still really excited. I'm not really sure why. I'm not expecting many presants (i don't want any) but i still get to be a year older...I guess.
Actually, I can't wait to be a really old lady, 'cuz then I can do just about anything i want and no one will care! it sounds like fun.

today has been really strange. this afternoon it was 49 degrees, but tonight it's supposed to get down to 9 degrees. All day it's been really sunny then totally clowdy then really sunny again, and all day windy. Now it's snowing, and the wind is still very strong. the snow is light and melts, but it's still really strange. Ah, New England weather....always a suprise.

...I want Pochy.

hello, again, ye few of odd faith who actually think my life may be interesting. i assure you, you are mistaken. but whatever.

i'm here in animation class...and i'm stuck. my tim here is running out (in the class, i mean, not in the living world) and i need to think of a final project. i think i'm going to do a puppet show thing with my camera and a puppet stag made out of a shoe box. not sure what i'll do for puppets, though. and i really need a scanner so i can finish the animation that i'm working on (i've hit a brick wall and have been sitting here doing nothing for about a week now. jeez)


in other news, i went to cape cod over the thanksgiving break. it was really fun, relaxing, and nice. i took some cool photos, too, so i'll pick out the best and put them up soon...hopefully. Also, while i was lounging in my room listening to music and waiting for the turkey and whatver to finish cooking, i drew alot, and planned out everyone's holiday presents. i won't say what they are in case wondering eyes come looking through this- YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!!

ha ha, yeah, well, anyway. while i was drawing, i drew some pretty good feet. if i could get photoshop to work on my aging computor, i'd clean and color the pics and put them up. Alas, my comp is an old hag who is stubborn and obstenant and intractible, so this will never happen. too bad. not that anyone but me actually cares.

oh, and yesterday, i was walking along Whitney Ave when i sw this dog. it was small and yellow and-LOOK IT'S A WATERMELLON!!!!!!!!

ha. made you look.

...or not.

well, that's it.
bye bye!

first off, i'll have you know that i have the worst spelling ever. I can look at a blantantly wrong word for minutes straight and find nothing wrong with it. I blame it on my upbringing.

This is the first journal entry i've written online. ever. why should you care? you shouldn't. it has nothing to do with you. i was just saying.

I'm actually really excited. Next week my parents and I are going on a trip up to Vermont. We used to go all the time, because my grandfather owned a complex in the mountains that we could stay at. Unfortunately, he had to sell it notlong before he passed away. Now we hardly ever go up there anymore.

Now, i'm not one for sports, and it'll be too soon for ice skating and skiing and the like (thank goodness), but it will be right at peak season, and i'm really looking forward to walking through the piles of vibrant leaves of golds and reds and oranges. We're staying at a place the has a fireplace, so i'll beable to drink hot coco infront of a nice warm fire. I haven't done that in ages!

I've been in a real artsy mood lately. i've been taking alot of photos (not all of them any good), making some animations (which i love doing more than anything), and i even got back into painting! I've sketched alot, although thay probably aren't what you're imagining. my sketches ar more of doodles, not fine art, and definately nothing that reflects what i see.

Even though it's fall, it has been really warm. i like it, but because of the warm weathr, none of the trees are changing colors. that makes me sad.

on a brighter note, the sunflowers that we planted bloomed intime before the cold weather came (even though we planted them late!)
I took a few shots of them, but the light wasn't any good, so i didn't post them. it's awkward, because they are ina part that is in the shade when the sun is lower. I don't know, i'll figure it out. i'm too proud of them just to give up.

not long ago, i actually did a few self prtrait shots. they were my first; i usually don't do people, much less myself. they aren't anything too special, i don't have my own studio or anything. I posted a few if anyone wants to see them. just be nice. i don't particularly like my own face.

ah, well. weekends are a blessing.

over and out

~something i'll remember.