yes, well...homework sucks. and so does looking for colleges.
not that anyone really cares. I just feel like complaining.
I realize that if anyone tried to read my last entry they couldn't because of the plethora of spelling mistakes. my spelling's usually bad, but not -that- bad. My excuse is that the keyboard at school is different, so it's harder for me to type, thus making it harder to spell. I could go back and fix it, but...I don't wanna. so there.
i've lately been going down the list of mangas on OneMAnga and testing/reading them all. If i don't like it by the end of the first chapter or if I know beforehand that i don't like it (like bobobo and one peice) i skip it. otherwise i try to read the whole thing. there are actually a ton i had never heard of before that are really awesome! the thing is...it takes a really long time. i've been reading them for months now and i'm only in the Fs. oh, well. at least i won't get bored soon.

I've decided to be a director after all my schoolings done, but I'm not really sure about how that's going to work. I'm okay with the learning part- learn how to make and write a film, study film, watch movies, observe people, have fun making movies on your own...but then, what's next? once i have all the knowlege, how am i supposed to apply it? how do I start? I know I shouldn't worry so early in the game, and that i may just change my mind later on, but i guess i'm just feeling alot of insecurity. my dream is to make a really cool fantacy mirrormask/pan's laberynth-y type of movie that also has alot of modern symbolism and/or explores certain ethical debates, but...first I have to become a director. I suppose the best thing to do is just read. read artlicles and books on famous directors and just continue to learn and never pass up a chance to get connections. If i do all that, everything -should- fall in place...I guess.
or maybe i'm just doomed.
and maybe i shouldn't be worrying about this yet.

i'm actually excited, because my birthday's coming up next month (in march). I won't say when or how old i'll be, because i don't know everyone on this site (that'd be impossible!), but i'm still really excited. I'm not really sure why. I'm not expecting many presants (i don't want any) but i still get to be a year older...I guess.
Actually, I can't wait to be a really old lady, 'cuz then I can do just about anything i want and no one will care! it sounds like fun.

today has been really strange. this afternoon it was 49 degrees, but tonight it's supposed to get down to 9 degrees. All day it's been really sunny then totally clowdy then really sunny again, and all day windy. Now it's snowing, and the wind is still very strong. the snow is light and melts, but it's still really strange. Ah, New England weather....always a suprise.

...I want Pochy.